26 December 2009

Am not Content...

Its 2 days since my holidays started and 48 hrs has just gone astray like a Blink!!!

Am giving an extra helping hand at home, so less unexciting on watching TV and surprisingly my workstation is shut off for a longer period than usual...

Watching AVATAR and 3 IDIOTS has been the most wonderful-breathtaking experience for the last week, which is still keeping me refreshed…A review will do no fair dealing and I can only repeat this…GO AND WATCH THEM…NOT TO BE MISSED!!!

Hubby shopped (For a change) for his coming B’day…and for a revolutionize; I returned empty handed…Its kinda edgy, since I never escape a place without my pocket lighter...something is making me restless….Am not Content, nothing is making me feel “AM Fine”, am asking for more and what? universally it’s the festive season, joy spread around so obvious and yet there is always something which makes me say “This is not enough”…Whatever….

Its will be a yr for this 01st, I started writing my thoughts in this space…Have been going through randomly on some of the posts, which is such a lovely nostalgia, much happened in 2009….

I started the year with bagging the new job, travelling abroad for my induction which opened doors to a new world and learning, daddy’s retirement and shift, getting used to my new home and routine, those short trips with hubby and intimacy, My new car and adventure with driving and parking, making new frens and getting closer to my cousin’s, hospitals, My dream watch, celebrating my first anniversary and concluding with my sister’s marriage…oppsss, really a lot for me!!!

As a person, I can see the change this year has gifted me….

Being a Judge to myself, am a person with THIRST for knowledge, to learn new things, crave for more space, more independence, better money management, strive for happiness, better lifestyle, for better skin, hair, clothes, footwear…. everything to be raised to impressive better than preceding….Its the diminutive transformation which I keep track of for betterment….Am I there? Off course NO, as I said am not content and am not greedy….I just need to excel! I shall begin the year, focusing on my career, giving a secondary to rest of the things. Hopefully Luck favors me, making way for what I want...

Come this Thursday, I will be travelling to Jainkel a small private estate in Sakleshpur. We are a group of 9, welcoming this new yr together!!! Am excited like a little girl and no amount of me writing and talking relieve the actual pleasure am undergoing…

More and more to record; for my nostalgia later….

24 December 2009

Holiday - Holiday....

Yipeeeeeeeeeee.......Its Holiday Season.....and am away from my routine starting today....

Wishing all great 52nd week of 2009!!!!

Wishing all a great Vacation!!!!

My Lazy yawning days starts....
I will have time to put Decoction for my morning coffee, than running away with Bournvita...I will have time to watch all those DVD's stacked up...I will have time to have that hot hot lunch taking my own time...I will sleep and sleep and get my beauty sleep...and those silly evenings doing nothing or shopping or dine...To sit with MIL and listen to her stories...gossiping and girlie talks with my old frens....and still manage to say am Bored to Hubby...and learn some cooking .....and....my count down for my trip next week has begun...

Gifts have started flowing and what more can I ask for????
First It was Vin's who got me a nice bag for my short travel and its a beauty. Then it's Kav's who gave me this Lovely hand made calender...Thanks Ladies, HUGS!!!!

well, am in this mood....


21 December 2009

December.....what's up wth me

The year is almost EnDiNg….Am all geared to start 2010, the number looks good but lets see what’s in store for "ME"( SeLfIsH!)….I want lot of things my way..listening?

Currently am in a GUILT process and here’s the flashback….

I “over-committed” to my long time good friend and my sister last week and am so bloody feeling bad about MYSELF. Am truly guilty....head low...

Okay…. 2 weeks back, I met V who is my very long time friend in office cafeteria and a plan was worked out during the coffee discussion to Travel to Kerala during Christmas. Just us and her little son. I was so excited about the way we planned and committed asking her to book the requirements.

Similarly, I visited my sister few days back and we decided to go to shimoga (My granny’s place) during our hols next week and again with the same existing excitement I said “OK” confirmed.

Come this week, I called them both and said “I can’t make it” and am not feeling good about the fact I did not think before committing. Both of them are fuming at me, maybe will never really consider me for their next plan L((( and why would they want to listen to my Reason's, when their purpose is not solved. But its not good at my side...This is not the first time am doing this..

So my first resolution is already in making for the year and that’s…

****Never COMMIT anything, unless you are sure and double sure**** Stop trying to please everyone*****

Am so-so-so attracted to devotional songs these days…wait a min, its not a joke..Its become a part of my routine unknowingly…

It always used to be parents listening to it from 5AM until they finished their round of morning prayers. This used to be unease for us to wake up, make faces, crib to the sound and walk out for school / college. I can never relay to them, any music. I mean Music has never been my passion…

Sometimes, a hindi / kannada / English music track might catch my ears for a day or two and that’s the end. Back to some random songs while I drive..

B-U-T I think it’s my marital status (really?) or maybe this is what I ASSUME, has got me closer to some devotional songs, without which I can’t move my day. Am humming them often and feel so GOOD. I even picked up a CD (NeW ME) and this is what I feel is the making of my second resolution for new year and That’s….

****Music**** Devotional songs****More songs****a way to de-stress

Last week .......Mania

was shopping for NEW YR in Jack n Jones (Loved the collection) …

Avatar" is a good movie – a must one time watch, my expectation of the 3D effect was just not MET and not sure it’s the Theater to be blamed or the movie did lack the effect. The concept, creativity, the new thing, brilliant work, inventiveness…..all the good vocabulary in English can be allied to the miraculous work gone behind making this movie. Please go and WATCH!!!!

Hope all of you there having FUN….the feeling during December is just so different…so beautiful….

Hey, pls don't look at the below pictures of you love food and currently Hungry..Last night dinner was at

"ELEMENTS" and you must go there to bring that joy to your Tastebuds...

and...when I checked my "BMI" in the machine today, I just weight right for my height..so more food and more eating and the passion continues..

14 December 2009

My DiL GoES ZOOmmm...OOMMM...

Yes, am so Refreshed – Rejuvenated – Revived!!!!! The meaning same, but that’s the feel am starting my week with; repeat REFRESHED!!! I need to Blame my lovely Sunday I had for this believe; indulging in FISH SPA as scheduled and rest of the fun things until late evening which self describe as a perfect Sunday..

FISH SPA – Startling set up; a class crowd and it all began with this exhilaration to just set our foot inside the Fish tank …..Kavs accompanied me to the Spa, both of us waiting with equal anticipation to try this unique foot reflexology.

Without much wait, we were taken near the Tank and asked to sink our feet inside and enjoy the session…
Just a peep, sent a chill looking at those hundreds of tiny, brown fishes waiting to attack us.We plunged out feet inside and those petite garra rufa fishes rushed near our feet and started off with their business ….
Initially it looked YUCK….felt YIKKKESSSSSSS….TICKLISHHHHH…”OPSSS, I CAN’t do this” kinds….and then we tried indulging again…It’s the same shriek…yiikkessssss…what’s this??? And then a loud laughter and same noises from us… We were overjoyed at the sight and feel; screeched at the same time, taking our own sweet time to get used to those hundred’s of them all over our feet.…It takes a minimum of 10 mins to get used to the feeling and sight, and unknowingly you start to love their work. Initially we opted for 10 min, but just could not resist the amazing feel, extended to 10 more mins and before they said its TIME UP; we stretched to 30 mins and those were amazing …They suck the dead skin away, slowly relaxing you…We were offered a free 10 min shoulder / Hand ,massage adding intensity to Rejuvenation …
Anyone who has not tried, should give it a shot once…It’s just worth the skill
(Atleast the TICLKE)

Overall Loved the 30 min special healing therapy and with this not enough, There was road side chat session with the gang post the SPA, road side shopping and before I could realize, the sun was saying good bye…We cancelled our Dinner plan to eat light at home…
So no complains to start the week all FRESH and HAPPY!!!
(Am I not content with so little things in life?)

Dad and mom are vacationing in Shimoga for a week, while am waiting for mine!!!!

11 December 2009

Friday LiVE…..

Friday Live...from Shru...

Tried hard to watch the movie “BLUE” today, but just could not enjoy it at all…

The sharks, fishes, water, music, Akki, Sanju baba, Sexy Lara, my fav Zayed, Kat’s “
Ball Closure Rings” style, the audacious swim, the bikes & Racing, the Glamour quotient, the Hype, The Dialogues…”NOTHING” made me sit up and watch this movie … I switched off half way and planning to take the next DVD from the rack “DO KNOT DISTURB” scheduled for the noon show!!!

I realised my desire ... 1) Lower Lip piercing 2) Tattoo on my right arm say “OM

OFFCOURSE, I don’t DARE both of this now…. have masses of persuasive in line, which will take away time and mental health and end up just not longing anything…..Let me be optimistic and say the feeling is only for “NOW”!!!!!

Do you also have a secret desire like this?

Finally my December trip is scheduled on the last day on this yr

, for 3 days in Sakleshpur (Yippee)…It was very tough to conclude, fingers crossed, prayers silently ON from my side, since I need this 2 day break – BADLY – make that VERY BADLY…but something imp from FIL’s side, might be a priority then…..

As soon as we are back, its hubby’s birthday. So my new year will start off with his Birthday celebration. He is turning “30” and the feeling is so good - out of the ordinary – am personally so excited for this special number!!!

I badly want to check with him, if the feel is any different …”The 30 feel”???

He continues to look Younger day by day…

Anyways; people like him get lucky to party with team on a Friday evening, while I get to sit in front of my buddy here and just type these words..Realized how much I lack friends in life…

Thanks for all of you there, who flowed the lovely names, for the COFFEE SHOP. My fren has finalized 5 names, which will conclude to “1” later…I shall post the name, once it’s finalized by those 3 friends. Now, it’s up to them to choose. Next step will be on finalizing the Interiors….yet to get more info on this and planning will start…


LIVE......from Television News and My Views...

oh HELL with Politics and its Drama..Its reaching Rakhi Sawanth's level ( and much more) or Can I even compare to anything worse (?), which is full of false Nautanki, than anything real or Policy or whatever little truth...First it was all Drama b/w our beloved CM with Reddy bro's taking over the news channel, our time, thoughts, Government's abundance money, patience and then one fine day they shake hands and smile and more drama continues...we believe, we Live normally

( P.s Personally I like Rakhi Sawanh for her talent, so the comparison)

Now, Its its passed to our neighbouring state...what's that...JAI TELANGANA???

Oh come on, I wanted something better on a Friday evening than pained by this another Drama taken to a much better level by our Chandrashekar Rao ( he, who cannot even walk on self), fighting so religiously to dividing the state.For WHAT? For Policy? For betterment of the Country or state? WHATEVER buddy, do u even realise what r you putting at stake? Why does the Bus have to burn for this fight? What was that "satyagraha"?? ( Uff, Gandhi follower's)???? do they have reports justifying what will be the Special effects and improvement post dividing the land...will the Flood affected people and area be back to normal is a miracle time? Are they even looking at those people now? they are only people on streets with banners causing so much havoc to the normal public life and more money in the flow like floods....It PAINS to be looking at so much go waste, while they all sit and do more damage in the name of Politics and Policy...Am so sorry for the victim Rosiah here, I believe YSR considered to him as one of the most knowledgeable & Matured man, at 77 he is fighting a never ending, ever unwanted Battle!!!!

Can Congress act seriously, before our Mayawati Devi starts accessing her active mind and make cry, following such stupid acts down south? I hear she wants to divide her state too...Divide and WHAT? Why can't this time and money be used for something better ( sounds like Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder?)

Atleast am ANGRY and venting out.....Congress Maiyya, Can you unfold this?

This is what we are presenting to our future gen!!! More division,more Drama....More news, More money..MORE TAX for me and you!!!


09 December 2009

A morning without coffee....

" Coffee is the best thing to douse the sunrise with. ~Drew Sirtors"

I love-COFFEE...Do you??? If yes, then please ahead

My very good friend at work is starting his own coffee shop; along with 2 of this friends as partners.
He is a software engineer by profession, but moving ahead to make his dream come true...His passion-COFFEE.....

Last week, he finalized the place and interiors is in planning stage. As exciting as it might get and sound, the first step is to finalise the name for his cafe in progress....There are few names in our list, but nothing reconciling with the ardor...I request you ( My friends, cousins, close frens, blog frens, rest of human kind...) to please take a min and think of a nice name and do leave it in comments column.

A nice-creative name for a coffee shop; which will give a feel of an aromatic freshly brewed coffee...

How’s life at your end?

What’s’ you’re Raashe baby!!!

Am a Piscean as per English paper/Calendar and Mesh as per my birth certificate….

Which one should I consider while reading my Horoscope for the day?

OFFCOURSE, the one which speaks GOOD!!!!

Back to the MOVIE, What’s your RAASHE….

Good entertainment, on a Sunday morning, when you have nothing interesting to do, but this DVD. The reason for the story to start and conclude is STUPID (JUST STUPID); doesn’t make any sense nor any practicality attached.

But the process of seeing 12 girls from different sun signs was AMAZING! Though again, not a very practical move, am speaking in pure “entertainment terms”; for a lady like me. For me, it was the process of imagining each girl in her circumstances and hows it like to meet a guy for the first time arranged by the parents. What to talk, how to dress up, how to behave and how not to…..I have been through this process (which was taken carelessly from my side, since I was already in LOVE); but I did go through!!!! It rushed back memories (though not pleasant then) but TODAY since am in a different situate, I could afford to IMAGINE and think, how’s it like!!!!

I loved Ms.Chopra’s clothes, acting to-be bride and all the things attached to Gujarati family, attitude and style!!! Loved Harman as an NRI, who was so unruffled, balanced and took the flow of meeting girls and enjoying each experience. Loved every scene where he meets the girl and wished there was more drama; than those unwanted songs.

I loved – I loved – I was entertained – thrown into this imaginary world again!

In lay life realism, I will never every be able to meet a person for today, talk, have coffee and settle on the leading decision of my life. That’s also cos; I always knew what I want and ensured I took all routes to convince that he is was the one for me. It’s never easy for Parents to accept that their son/daughter choosing their spouse. The attitude of most of Indian parents will never change when it comes to few things in LIFE – NEVER. Maybe when am a parent, I might understand that, but that’s to see.

Else, I love the fact that I lead my life based on my decisions and awareness, even ready to take the short fall/compromises if am faced to.

I wonder, what about those people who fall in love but never have the courage to convince their parents? What about those people in remote parts / Villages, where even before they know what MARRIAGE is, they are just done with it. What about those, who have parents who will emotionally pull them back and get them marriaged to else?

“WHAT if” – exist for many reasons, circumstances and diverse for different class of society, caste and dogma. Such a miscellaneous topic, which can be never ending…..lemme stop here.


so....How’s life at your end?

Gugee – this for you, though COPIED, :(

This Day I Married My Best Friend

This day I married my best friend
...the one I laugh with as we share life's wonderous zest,
as we find new enjoyments and experience all that's best.
...the one I live for because the world seems brighter
as our happy times are better and our burdens feel much lighter.
...the one I love with every fiber of my soul.
We used to feel vaguely incomplete, now together we are whole.

07 December 2009


Come NOVEMBER, its the season of Avarekai ( COW BEANS) in namma karnataka!!!
You get it in HEAPS in the market with any vegetable vendor, a treat to people who love "Delicios SOUth Indian food"...a favourite since my childhood...
( Am not sure, if this is available in other pats of the country???)

There are varities of dishes you can make out of this bean, which leaves you with a refreshing taste in the end, wanting more and more...I just can't stop eating them...

While mom prepares saaru and huli ( well known as saambar and Rasam) with Avarekai, she also mixes it with Akki rotti ( roti made from rice flour) roasted; upma, rice bath......the tang just "out of world"

MIL takes it to a different level altogether, by showcasing her "ANDHRA" stlye cooking and making the same sambar in a different style. She grinds Onion with methi, coconut, ginger, tamrind paste and coriander and mixes to the bean sambar which gives a special savor, asking for more and more....
pls do try and lemme know how much you loved it.

I don't have exact recipes; but post was more to say what an important vegetable it is for us for next 2 months, so much a part of our routine and how much a loved bean it is :)
Am loving it ...
RENU....u wanna try? Are you familiar with this vegetable?

06 December 2009

IdLe mInD is.......???

Its my friend's wedding today and I decided not to go.....and am regretting this decision “NOW”; so mad with somewhat that's irritating my senses....I had planned to attend his marriage, had planned my attire and accessories; but convincing myself with reasons, which goes like this…… its cos Hubby is not here to drive me till the wedding hall, since I will be draped in lovely kanceepuram saree and other one is I can't take an auto so far; all dressed up!...I can't DRIVE, when I don't know the way ( rubbish)....

Am not convinced with my own reasons and HELL, this is doing no good to my IDLE mind today.....

I sometimes can’t reason out the “new” me and surprises as to how well I can shield myself and let my mind wander to unwanted torture.

It’s definitely not cos GU is not here, and so skillfully reason my mind as HIM. Am much independent to drive my day/days, than expecting him to be here, take me out or sit beside me - whatever…I have had my fun days with my frens, I have had my business travels every year, from which I carry fond memories…but what’s this after marriage? I have somewhere lost a part of myself!!!!!


Little good was done to me after reading LIFE from times today. It started with “SPIRITUALITY” to Emraan’s fav cuisine….The best was the poem I read and copying it below!!!!

Your children are not your children:

They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.

they come through you but not from you,

And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,

For they have their own thoughts.

You may house their bodies but not their souls,

For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,

which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them,

but seek not to make them like you...”

-- Children by Kahlil Gibran

There is a reason why I refer the above, since there is an issue with my far off cousin with his parents and that has resulted in my debate with myself from past week about the sensitive relation b/w parents and the kids! It’s the most challenging task, pheww..... But unless u r a parent and going through this phase with your kid at every stage of his growing yrs, you never know the actual FEEL!

Currently reading “THE CASE OF THE BONSAI MANAGER”, where it talks of being intuitive in the first chapter…AND instead of imaging the management theory it talks of, my mind was being “intuitive” that am not going to be a part of the 2 trips I planned mentally this December. What more can go wrong??????? being a "Piscean" trust me ; being intuitive works so well for me…personally…

By the way, have you noticed the sun shine in Bangalore in December? I have those frizzy memories of my childhood, where it used to be so chill and gloomy and its just vanished now!!! I miss Bangalore winter and this is definitely not the same this year...I don't like the sun shine in December....I don't like it; that the clothes are all dried up by evening, which reminds me of summer...

Oh YES, today looks like a tirade day for me....

****Back to Travel and Living now…happy Sunday to all…

MIL’s cooking “Baalekai playa” ( raw banana) and “avarekai saaru” ( cow bean), and papad which might prove to be the only thing which am gagagaaaaa over this Sunday - meal!!!

03 December 2009

Something Unexpected....

hubby called me now...Some issue in the Family front and he is leaving to Hyderabad tonight...
HELL, am just not feeling good at all..He is leaving so unexpectedly and though its for a genuine cause, its not doing any good to my emotions....Will have to thrust myself next 3 days (or) never know how long, waiting..gggg.....rrrr...rrr...for him to come back now....

I know its silly, its child like, Its immaturity talks, but this is the FEEL..This is the mood currently and where else can I crib apart from this space here, which is all ment for me....and it just doesnt laugh back at me..

Without you gu...Its just so different, even before experiencing it...especially when you didnt give me time to mentally prepare...:(
My weekend will be just myself and am not going outdoor nor enjoying...am in Solitude...am angry.

..During Kabini Trip...!!!!.

01 December 2009

Monday evening.....

****A red travel bag, a Sexy cabin baggage ( really cool!!), loads of anklets, ear-rings, wooden fancy neck pieces, heaps of tops from Scullers and a stole is what Vins shopped last evening, while I stood and “Watched”!!!!! (Is this me?))
YES- I resisted from not ShOpPiNg...Did not pick anything and CHEERS to me, after having paid that huge credit card bill 2 days ago!!!!

It was a nice Monday evening for me, since we met up after work and indulged in this unlimited fun; a rejuvenation, worth trying during start of week! After a long time, I had the road side pani-poori and look at me, jumping at such small things now... a distinction; to my taste buds...

**** Am going over and over my last Kabini trip snaps today, which means it’s an indication I need another trip, away from Bengalooru. It’s been a controversial subject trying to marry lot of things and plan that needed trips time and again for “ME”. I love travelling and feel time is flying away, while I just allow my mind to idle and lead a routine. We have an option to go to Ooty again with Neha and Gautham, but foresee some issues, so on “hold”…..We have been planning something during end of dec ( ahh bliss!) and the discussion with the gang continues and looks never ending…I have other challenges to face under the roof, once the actual planning is done…
See,I love having the tickets, hotel booking and schedule planned in front of me days ahead of; so it’s a motivation to lead the routine!!!!

**** It’s a plan to go to FISH SPA next weekend…Heard the reviews in television and internet and am dead curious to try the Pedicure in an innovative style…For a change, it will be those firang “FISHES” kissing your feet, taking away those dead cells, cleansing them and leaving your feet feel like “wow”!!! Am for sure to keep this plan “ON” with Kavys….More review and drama, once am done with the special treatment and taken those pics!!!! WISH I could ask for “more” and walk to UB City and check those LV bags (is it really worth those zero’s?)

Ok –ok, back to reality…Only SPA, then a hot cuppa, then back home!!!!

Did we realise, its DECEMBER!!!! Another year back and a fresh start again!!!

30 November 2009

From Perception ...to Performance....Best buddy post

You came to be a part of my team, cast off from the other since you were not good at “this and that”…I was apprehensive, due to the perception formed; talking to you over the phone for that first time; overseas, asking those usual questions on the subject and blah blah…..see, it’s the perception, which still made the usual me think you were an “

I came back offsite; You were there along with so called professionals graduates and good performers...The usual process of training and accreditations did go on and I was least looking at you and expectations were just so LOW. Me in my usual self-skill sets fashioned in handling people, did those fake stunts to treat you alike.

First disclosure, yet unable to believe was those brilliant marks scored in those test papers. It was just a simple test, I know him, am the lead here! See I said, it’s the Perception; which was dominant! Now I remember you said hello at the pathway and I least looked at you to acknowledge….

Your language issue was rather; I could take it as my strength to prove my point…as your weakness…

The best performance improvement is the transition from the non-working state to the working state.

It was then a series of “this and that” slowly and effectively, which made me sit back and think …

Hell, Its my PERCEPTION….Can those marks be wrong, can that honesty be wrong? Those client appreciations for handling that critical account at that crux of the moment are wrong? Can that consistency be wrong? You were the first to raise your hand in agreement, to work late….

“HELL, you proved me wrong”….

Oh yes, you were the one who spoke to the team saying this is what she meant and that she is our boss….do I thank you for supporting me or Thank you for being so much the BEST performer in uniformity….Was it me who scribbled those lovely words recommending you for those awards? AGAIN, it was you who handled those calls in my absence and you who taught new kids on floor…You had the patience and the Belief. You hardly cribbed for work or for wages…

It was “YOU”, who was the REJECTED!

“You changed it, the PERCEPTION”!

"People believe I am what they see Me as, rather than what they do not see. But I am the Great Unseen, not what I cause Myself to be in any particular moment. In a sense, I am what I am not. It is from the Am-notness that I come, and to it I always return.”..Neal Donald

You were the one, who proved me wrong in the “right” way….You knew exactly how to communicate with your actions and not by words or cry…this was my lessons, which challenged my over-confident skills-sets I carried so long…. I moved on, stuck to my memories; the effect you had shaped…I still carry those lessons, not written anywhere, but an experience worth…Today, you are one of my good buddies..

““It is an immutable law in business that words are words, explanations are explanations, promises are promises but only performance is reality.

You called me last week….its your last few days in the city. you are quitting but for a better place to go, to follow your dreams…You made this place wonderful and taught me lessons which will be cherished in our growing yrs in profession….This is to say how best you were at, even at those challenging times… I know your chosen path now; is a road “very less travelled”, but you will be a winner!

This post dedicated to you buddy!!!! All the best……Shrutzz

( you are in those pics....;))

27 November 2009

Wandering mind....Back to those days

____Its a long post, just wrote with the flow..No edits___

At that time…

It was Evening; Back from school. The options were to “3” - Play-Homework- sleep! This was all known back in 90s, dare not comparing wit this GEN school student!

Confused mind, fresh crushes stirring the psyche, watching the 20 something women walk in those umbrellas’, erudition new things naively, exploring hobbies and combine studies with then only best fren….The new lady bird cycle bought cheerfulness, which even a SUV might not get it today, loafed around every road known unless mom shouted for homework or dinner…

Lagori was the most sought out game, but the reason behind participating was this Marwari guy, much younger and so cute. It was talks on beauty (silly!), clothes and the fights with girls… Being a part of BAND-SET in school was only inspirational, not considering studies. Thought THIN, managed as head-band set girl on all occasions and learnt Flute; imagining to be an actress and troubled mom, for not plaiting that hair properly with red ribbon before going to school. It was all about “DEMAND”…and “DEMAND”….Loved the teacher who had her mode of coaching and mocking the same back home, which was the spring of studies and passing the exams....Numbers never interesting, but loved the languages and History, making some mark to get noticed…

Sitting next to a boy in school was incongruous and mind never accepted, struggling to even share an eraser…while the contrary yrs from then, trying to sit in the front row to see the same boy dance in the final yr school. Thoughts another crush; action of all kinds to get noticed unless there was a true proposal for Love on the last day. This was the most unholy moment, scared, tears rolling and running away scared to be in sight…This was Love then; owing never to think so “BAD”…(Laughing!)

Comics were every craze and made growing yrs so much meaningful, with those imaginations; forming a chuck of education…Reading the magazines secretly with her was so much fun…all kinds of questions in mind and a distressed for answers…Assuming and concluding it was the best fun in that age…

Sister existed for fighting and sharing those clothes and books. It was always transitory text books, games and clothes.. Comparing marks card and knowing each other frens were a part. The one big birthday bash was the only celebration for years to remember. It was for sis and shopping for it in City Style was the biggest thing that had ever happened…friends from same lane coming over and cutting the cake and that one picture of standing next to her. Simple snacks and go back to the road for our usual “CROCODILE” play. This was all the memories of a big bash then….sounds cool! Character was Extremes. Could cry for all silly things and very easily, contrary could get so excited as if world was mine.

Never had dreams of being independent, making wealth, no future plans on education, No mind of own nor judgment; just nothing to look ahead. It was a life, which was lead as it was told and for the day. It was all about subsequent….NEXT…

Turning back, not much memories of the person she was is a great Regret. Growing yrs was always a debate on one thing, is it DIPLOMACY or STRAIGHT FORWARD? Wish could take time back and see myself and analyze. Where could I have possibly acted better, corrected it or pat my back for being it that way….

My then best friend in school also studied pre-university with me in same college. We were 17 yrs, carrying the same deportment, same fun, same cycle, same assumption…It was English class with my fav teacher, making my imaginary cells grow more and brining some light to what I want to do, pleasure listening to those stories from text books…She sits next to me, adding more drama to the knowledge and those soft chuckles…That day, her uncle suddenly emerges and talks to the teacher. The first thought that scares my sensitive mind is some sad news in the family…She is taken away and do not see her in college again…Sunday, walked up to her house to meet her. she is all in tears, in sarees, in bangles, her hair full of flowers….some 20 plus family members around her…talking what not…They have themselves decided to get her married, now that she is a WOMAN!

At that age, No words to explain the fear it had implanted in me to go away with a man, whom you have never known and what not? Does she know what a marriage is? She went through all the troubles of dressing up, getting married; definitely her mind nowhere or elsewhere…what was it? Never spoke about her marriage at home, with the fear of the sight and talk that had captured me…with the fear, if I will be given away to someone, without me knowing what was going through…It was illegal, it was killing someone mentally and physically, but not death…

It was so confusing and weakening to this mind here, troubled till the date I was a confident woman again!!! Till I completed the process of education, Till I fell In love, Till I met people, Till I knew what was I doing and where was I…Such a breather; I lived Life only after that..

I know last week, she Lives in a small town in Andhra Pradesh and has a “boy” baby (Thank god for her and Family) who goes to school….

23 November 2009

Me and my Thoughts.....sister-Lambhoghini-crime-Mba!!!

Am at Mom’s place today and tomorrow…Dad’s second eye surgery early morning tomorrow and am all set to be THERE until I get him back home J

I demanded my sis to come home and later go to work, since I wanted to spend time with her…while she was here, all I was doing is “WORK and WORK”…Preparing a ppt, which is quite challenging to ME.

Anyways, back to the POINT…She cribbed, while I attended my office calls, back to my notebook and back to those calls…suddenly at one point of time, I could hear her whimper and I just went and HUGGED her, saying how nice its to see her sitting there, while I did something here under the same roof….Its just like those days from school or college…the FEEL, the milieu was so nostalgic, which resulted in the embrace….I did not want to miss the moment of my grand feel and clicked a pic from my famous phone cam….( H, u still think I don’t deserve a iphone?)

Weekend was quite boring for me. YES-I made my point to hubby that we start planning something exciting from next week, else am better off at home. Even coffee day is getting bored of us….I did get to watch a Lamborghini, few BMW’s and Lexus on road, which is a new urbanized awareness; to gang my hubby…Its such a refresh to the eyes and definitely my new found curiosity / Interest…

I realized how technically challenged I am, when I was not able to change a simple template in my Blog. Thanks to my school fren Manju, who is helping me in such things….The concept of BLOG, has kept me bonded to this old school fren of mine, while I don’t even remember how he looks and what kinda person he is now. Its all about chatting and know him through his posts. I like it this way now, just bits and pieces of memories from 10 to12 yrs back. I do have few frens now, where I only have a Imaginary faces to relate and are good frens of mine. Somehow I will leave it that way, my mind's eye the flow to such exceptional friendship.

Off late, am reading-seeing-listening to a lot of NEWS to do with murder, suicide and cheating. Is it the MEDIA, which has gone more aware on such matters and recording this to increase the same to Public (or) is it that the crime rate has increased to this scope? I definitely did not feel it this way few yrs back, but from last 3yrs this is such a hype, and everywhere it’s about the same heart pricking news …. It’s definitely disturbing, soon wishing to avoid such news be it Newspaper or television.

Wishing all a good week ahead….Hope my presentation goes well…Back home tomorrow….Its been 2 yrs, am planning to do my Masters and not strong-willed on it! CHEERS!

20 November 2009

Happy Me Today....Just Like THAT....

I have JUST nothing to WRITE today, but in a mood to squiggle a bit and not sure “WHAT”…..Here it goes, just erratically…No origin

Am 27 yr old….Working for a Hollywood Picture Company in India…I landed in a profile, which I dreamt post my first transition in Infy(2004)….Am married to a person, whom I dated for 5 yrs, before I said “I DO” and think he is the best thing that happened to me in Life….I have always dreamt of taking care of my parents, and am content with the Bond we share and the fact that am THERE, when they need me or think of me…I keep in touch with people who matter the most to me…..I know my priorities…I have travelled around a bit, which I never even dreamt of….Am a strength to my little sis...

More...I picked up loads of DVD today to spend my weekend watching movies of my like in my big screen….I shopped alone this morning and loved it ( Jumping with Joy!)…..I have unbolted the windowpane in my bedroom, feels so beautiful to have so much of freshness and greenery shimmering inside….Had fantastic hot Lunch cooked by MIL …I was looking at myself in the mirror and thought my skin looks better and smiled like thousand times….I feel Confident, a new feel; exactly in contrary to what it used to be when I was in "College" and YES, am having the “LAST LAUGH” ( Me Cruel Woman now)….I have all the “civil liberties” to feel good about myself TODAY, otherwise am always petrified of and not sure the reason behind it….. I have got used to (or) love to feel BAD / insecure / whatever about myself…. When I thought I have almost got used to my life this way, I feel different and it’s NICE…

It’s a different day “TODAY”…No Fear-No unhappiness-No regrets…I love my life….Am what I AM and Happy about it!!!! All SmILEs ...

16 November 2009

Springled thought on a Monday evening....

TV9 is ON, hearing the "Kadlekai parashe" affair WHICH IS HAPPENING RIGHT NEXT ROAD FROM MY HOUSE....I can hear the crowd, noise, unlimited honking; its a phenomenon "Jaatre" in Bull temple road; with all assortment of kadalekai in front of you, with rest of goodies from villages which is a rare sight in Bengalooru.
No pictures to post, since am cozying at home...

Last yr, hubby dear went out to check the jaatre early morning and herez the link, if anyone is interested to know the fun and history of this fest….
It’s a 2 day jaatre and anyone interested still have time to plan and be a part of the crowd tomorrow!


Hubby is very busy these days. Miss those evening walks with him during weekdays and the inane shopping of books, eatables in Gandhi Bazaar…Its going to be like this for months to go and my notebook is my companion until then! Our discussion on the happenings from morning have reduced and miss that so badly…He was my one side gossip partner, where he is only at receiving end and making weird and wonderful faces, hearing to the claptrap I talk.

But it’s so much FUN, which I miss now! Lets walk the Talk GU...
I wish to stay entrapped forever, With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

Weekend was good….Saturday was all about lazing in front of TV and attending a small birthday party in the evening. The unsurpassed part of the party; apart from food was the “Thank you gift”. Though this is a new concept for me, I loved this special return gift and the thoughtfulness of little niece of Hubby….check the Pic…It is a small plant presented to all families and children who sang Happy birthday to the little one! Loved it... CHEERS to the belief!
This is the second return gift am getting this month…The other one was from a “Baby shower” I attended and got this little baby cart 
Gifts are always welcome!!!!!

Met my colleagues after months today at work, since they have been travelling all around the
world…Its nice to have people to work with, than work in Solitude. We had great Lunch to
celebrate our team meet (V 4) at Civet and what an Amazing food…..I just need a basis to dash to a fine place, for good food!!! The finest was hot hot carrot halwa….YUM YUM….YUMMMMMMM….Try the Halwa with Vanilla Ice-cream, am sure you will mislaid to HeaVeN! What a way to start my week….

Have a great week ahead all of you…..

12 November 2009


***My state of mind today is so anomalous…This is just NOT ME? (Or) is this me?

Am I so perplexed? Is it WORK (or) is it PERSONAL?

Dad’s cataract surgery yesterday was for about 40 mins. I had to rush (got late) in the morning, before he was taken to OT. This was a very simple surgery ( In medical and doc’s terms); but for ME, it was still a surgery, where Dad was made to wear the hospital surgery dress; taken into the room which was full of unknown instruments with staff walking here and there. Didn’t realize, I was praying naively, trying to calm my dad as to how effortless this course of action was and after an hour, he will be back to Normal!!!!

I was sitting out with mom, waiting for the surgery to be over. I strolled across some departments, which made me feel SICKER from within than anything else. How do all the staff- be it docs, nurses, attendants, rest of employees manage to be here every day IN and OUT, seeing so many patients walk in with diverse complexities…How is all this managed? There are departments for every inch in this hospital and you are made to run around multiple times, for the simplest of things. There were people waiting near admission counter, only to book beds for getting admitted…..I met this couple over a coffee, who told the husband needs to be admitted immediately as per the doc, while they have been running around for the admission form and bed availability for hours today…I had enough of the Hospital aroma, where I didn’t want to talk to anyone nor meet anyone. I just wanted to be there for dad, get him out and back home! This is how I felt. Cheers to the entire staff, who can manage all this professionally.

The Nurse attending my dad was astounding (my perception was totally vice-versa) and VERY helpful. She even took time to listen to his stories on politics and Mantralaya trip for which am sure she didn’t have much trace about. She tried her best to be at hand, so he could forget his pain and irritation while I was managing to get the clearance slip! Hope we meet the same lady next week for his left eye surgery….Am planning this much better, now I know how many times I need to run to ground floor and rest, with not all lifts going to all floors. I know need to wait atleast 20 mins to get the token and wait for the medicines….this time will work out better in terms of planning, except for I will not be able to arrange the STRONG COFFEE he craves for every now and then L

***Now back to my abnormal feeling, am still confused…..WHY?

I need some Gyaan stories about people travelling alone on business trips. Is there anyone out there who has travelled on business trip for more than 3 weeks ALONE and managed it fine and managed to enjoy too; in an unknown country? Please contact me to answer my questions or leave your contact!

***The truth I will always vouch for in an Indian Family….

Till the girl gets married, she is always pestered to agree to a guy of the same Caste and Sub- Sub- caste and get married…else it’s the issue of facing the "RELATIVES", than worrying about the Daughter or her needs and space…..Poor girl needs to get married, before the age limit…How old is your daughter? 25? not married? areeeeeeeeeee uffff......what are you waiting for????

Once married, she is questioned by everyone around (this time two times the people) as to why is there no news on Pregnancy…..why? why?why?

Is this all? Heheheeeeeeee…….Hmmm…Not my story though, but for sure most of the women in this land!!!!

***Here’s a piece from Chetan Bhagat’s speech….which I keep reading for my contentment!!!!

don't take life seriously. Life is not to be taken seriously, as we are really temporary here. We are like a pre-paid card with limited validity. If we are lucky, we may last another 50 years. And 50 years is just 2,500 weekends. Do we really need to get so worked up?

It's ok, bunk a few classes, goof up a few interviews, take leave from work, fall in love.

We are people, not programmed devices.....

"Don't be serious, be sincere."


Message to Hobo - You travel all over India and write so beautifully about the details. I love travelling too, but never got to visit the nook and corner you have in your blogs! Apart from South India, others have always been more on Imaginery terms from my read and pics, than a personal experience. But I do want you to visit the southern part and Bangalore. I assure you the feel is so unique!

This is your award from my side buddy!!!