Its my friend's wedding today and I decided not to go.....and am regretting this decision “NOW”; so mad with somewhat that's irritating my senses....I had planned to attend his marriage, had planned my attire and accessories; but convincing myself with reasons, which goes like this…… its cos Hubby is not here to drive me till the wedding hall, since I will be draped in lovely kanceepuram saree and other one is I can't take an auto so far; all dressed up!...I can't DRIVE, when I don't know the way ( rubbish)....
Am not convinced with my own reasons and HELL, this is doing no good to my IDLE mind today.....
I sometimes can’t reason out the “new” me and surprises as to how well I can shield myself and let my mind wander to unwanted torture.
It’s definitely not cos GU is not here, and so skillfully reason my mind as HIM. Am much independent to drive my day/days, than expecting him to be here, take me out or sit beside me - whatever…I have had my fun days with my frens, I have had my business travels every year, from which I carry fond memories…but what’s this after marriage? I have somewhere lost a part of myself!!!!!
Little good was done to me after reading LIFE from times today. It started with “SPIRITUALITY” to Emraan’s fav cuisine….The best was the poem I read and copying it below!!!!
“Your children are not your children:
They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.
they come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you...”
-- Children by Kahlil Gibran
There is a reason why I refer the above, since there is an issue with my far off cousin with his parents and that has resulted in my debate with myself from past week about the sensitive relation b/w parents and the kids! It’s the most challenging task, pheww..... But unless u r a parent and going through this phase with your kid at every stage of his growing yrs, you never know the actual FEEL!
Currently reading “THE CASE OF THE BONSAI MANAGER”, where it talks of being intuitive in the first chapter…AND instead of imaging the management theory it talks of, my mind was being “intuitive” that am not going to be a part of the 2 trips I planned mentally this December. What more can go wrong??????? being a "Piscean" trust me ; being intuitive works so well for me…personally…
By the way, have you noticed the sun shine in Bangalore in December? I have those frizzy memories of my childhood, where it used to be so chill and gloomy and its just vanished now!!! I miss Bangalore winter and this is definitely not the same this year...I don't like the sun shine in December....I don't like it; that the clothes are all dried up by evening, which reminds me of summer...
Oh YES, today looks like a tirade day for me....
MIL’s cooking “Baalekai playa” ( raw banana) and “avarekai saaru” ( cow bean), and papad which might prove to be the only thing which am gagagaaaaa over this Sunday - meal!!!