Love mixed with Work@$@

Its the after effect of missing my team so badly last evening, now I have planned for a team Lunch with them. I have decided, to send them a mail ( like those meeting requests) which will have "lunch" invite with two dates as option. Let them all discuss and choose one of them and I will decide the place ...hmm sounding good na:)

I have an issue here.I do not want to be TURNED OFF by 2 of them who have been Bl**** SELFISH enough to take people in team for granted and enjoy their rides of Love. Sick, when people can get immature enough to mix their feelings with Professional life and end up having a jolly ride, while others in TEAM have been burning their necks out from an year, to get this team to this state of performance. The least contributers ( Yes, as per data and justification) are these 2 souls, but none to question them nor look at the Inside story cooking. How is it- to gave a under performer a good rating and sending for upcoming progressions?? Is it the Gender or the looks which is performing here???
Such injustice happen and team will have none to go to and ask WHY? Data has been manipulated and questions unturned, just for the sake of L-O-V-E ( how false can it get).
Am sure this guy will have a empty dabba in his hand "one fine day", and when he turns back will find no one for a shoulder!

Anyways, I do not wish to see the shameless people for the Luncheon nor there will be any invite..such things aches, since you would have put in so much effort to make a team, make a leader, run the show.

Am travelling to California next weekend and this gives me enough time to wind up from such wounds and carry fresh set of feeling & hopes and looking forward for 6 weeks of unlimited work. My new boss is a workoholic and here am, changing my status to the same for few weeks!!! Will be writing in everyday, so I can always look back and check, How did I do with my initial days of new job :)))
Wish me the best~~Shru

TeAm-wOrK & ACCEPTANCE!

My coworker and myself were conversing on our at-hand assignments and stuff, while I get to hear the series of tête-à-tête from this group of 5 ppl from a team, having lunch together. They started out, making fun to of this girl, who was eating aloo parata and adding weight (How archetypal of them), when the 3 girls responded together in defense which was loud and funny (childlike)…..BOOM! The topic suddenly changed to SLum Dog and the relative details from times paper today; on how the movie being not so good to the direction, the actors, love, slums, child actors, etc...Even before any finale, the topic was changed to weekend plans, shopping and drink....with loud laugh frequently…
One of the guys, passed a joke on some girl passing by and again comes the loud Laugh.

UFF!!!!! When I was almost done with the food, my thought was "HOW SILLY – Irrelevant and Stupid" and in no seconds was reminded of the days, when I used to sit in groups and have Lunch with my few of my team members at infy, where the topics used to be much sillier than the ones, I heard from this group, where the laughters were worse and louder than the one by this group. Just that today I do not work for a TEAM and thus, forgot what the FUN is all like! I felt that this group, though sounded silly and childish to me, were having much better time and de-stressing than I was today.....

YES, am missing my group of people, whom I always used to hang around enjoying the little pleasures; 'with never ending - meaningless - GOMAD' topics and go through unlimited FUn! I was sitting idle for few minutes, nostalgic.
Am sure, will go through this phase for sometime until I get used to the new environment. Its no more Deciding dress code on Fridays, No more team meetings with fun, No more dancing together during low work, No more shouting together when someone is blushing, No more LEARNINGS, which is so related to the word TEAM!

I renounce, looking at the present situation, where am able to swim deep in Domain and work on the Documentation/assignments and ascertain new ideas, learning’s and EXPERIENCE! Am game for it and H is supporting me to go through this phase :)

It’s all about ACCEPTANCE, so am back to work forgetting the Lunch episode. Let me pick up a hot cup of tea and continue with my assignment……

"People might not get all they work for in this world, but they must certainly work for all they get." --Frederick Douglass

UnKnOwN MiSeRiEs :(

am not at all in a GOOD MOOD today, am just not myself. I have been searching answers for "WHAT" & "WHY" is this happening to me, without any said reason....am BLANK!
There is a limit to being emotional or sensitive or feeling like a LONER in life, its the "finding the reason & acting upon the solution" which has become a challenge for me.....
I just sulk endlessly, showing up a normal face - I ACT! I need to free myself from my own weaven miseries!!

Shru~~

Nothing is worth more than this day

Met my cousin in the bus today - Unexpectedly- a lound-exciting HELLO to him -everyone in the bus could make out, v know eachother...ekkss, me and my big loud mouth...

In between our discussion; which varied from work-recession-marriage-etc..., got a call from H. I told H will give him a call back, since am talking to my "C-O-U-S-I-N"! Now, the clarification is 'Chitti' ( mY COUSIN) is not my cousin legitimately; but my U-N-C-L-E!!!!
so, I have an Uncle who is just 4 to 5 yrs older to me and my dad, who is turning 60 this yr has a first cousin who is half his age!!!!

I also get to know, my great grand mother, who is Chitti's grand mother was pregnant ( yrs back); at the same time her Daughter was too ( Goodness!!!!), can we beat this?
Do we get to hear or see such sight now? hahhaa, for the rest of my journey to work today, I had my imagination running on the family tree and how the age diffference rockd!!
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while am writing this in a pleasurable mood , hear the news on terrorist attack on Srilankan Cricket team, no more in a mood to continue. Its a SICK feeling deep inside the stomach to hear deaths - terrorism - innocent ppl killed - beaten ....scared!! Fear is a disease that eats away at logic and makes man inhuman.

"Nothing is worth more than this day"
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Signing off in a sulking mood~~~

tRAVELLING IN vOlVo....

Discovered that, Traveling in Volvo is much better than a cab or an auto, from last one week experience! It’s inexpensive comparatively and won't get to hear the traffic clatter; not to forget that my hair is still tied tight :).....

Well, Today was an exception, since the bus driver was all the way cribbing-shouting at ppl for standing near the entrance- honking every inch he moved the wheels...well, he was irritated ( while rest of them in bus were too) and rude to commuters maybe he did not like what he was doing or his job. This is output; when you don’t like or enjoy what you doing, which becomes very difficult to handle it everyday in such cases. Yes, driving in Bangalore roads is not a pleasant job; but this is daily bread winner which he has no option but to take it in a optimistic psyche…..
I was standing next to him, unable to endure the continuous honking (even in a traffic jam and signals, where u have no choice) and very politely asked him not to honk at times, when it’s not required. He obviously and as expected, told me its not like sitting in big offices in AC and have a hot cuppa delivered to your desk, its driving in Bangalore roads & only drivers know what a JOB it is and having to do multiple trips in never ending jams…..Blah..Blah…

( It was not Embarrassing to me, since my experience in handling ppl and able to foresee things in times of irritation came handy to understand his outburst). I felt, I gave way for him to let loose his frustration-disappointment, which was “in good health” since it made him surprisingly feel less burdened and control his honking J Thanks to him, the crowded bus was able to hear to the lovely kannada song playing from FM; than the honking now!

I thanked him, before getting down from the bus, again startlingly few more in the bus joined me to thank him for taking it in a positive way! I walk back to office, feeling good about traveling in a VOLVO!

Monday blues are back ( No, am not cribbing about my job) and today one of my agenda is to stuff my desk with goodies!!! Yipppeee am going to love this and then continue with my reading on service levels, minutes of meet, transition plans….etc..etc…Happy MonDAY TO all!!!!

“We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.” - Jawaharial Nehru

BiRtHdAy!

“Like many women my age, I am xxyrs old” - Age is strictly a case of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter!

Well, It doesn’t matter to “ME” and had an unlimited BLAST Yesterday. I always believe in “Expect the Unexpected” (or) “Never PLAN your best days; go with the flow” ……

I woke up early, only to find that H standing in front of me; with his sleepy eyes (he’s hardly seen the crack of dawn) ….he sang a long and lovely Birthday song; which was his own creation and on the spot lyrics @#$@$# AM TOUCHED! This is the beginning…..

We made our usual trip to temple and asking my Fav god to keep me Happy all this year , since I have taken up two major challenges in recent times 1) Getting married 2) changing my employer during this time!!!! Is’nt it a “DARE”!!!!!

MIL had prepared hot-spicy-YUM-finger licking Masala dosa!!!! Had 2 of them, wishing had more appetite since I love treating my tummy with yummies. Got dressed and was waiting for H to join me, when I see a small glitzy box on the dining table. I see three of them standing in front of me, asking me to open that…owoowwwwwww ITS FOR ME!!!! Pair of lovely diamond studs – Woman loves them!!!!! Went Shopping at Shopper’s stop (goodness, it’s been ages I visited my Fav place). I wanted to grab everything my eyes fell on, but had to stop myself from it….Picked up two kurtis ( ONLYL)

Was touched, when the fellows in SS, wished me for my day; they got to know from my citizen card, gifted me a DVD. AM I LUCKY? Am a Piscean, get excited even with little things in life!

Got back home, for a simple nice lunch. Now, H religiously takes a nap post Lunch on weekends. Today, he was trying hard to be awake and talk things which made no much sense to me, only to know he had other plans. We went to coffee day, since he wanted to have Irish coffee ( FISHY)…we went to CD, only to be surprised by Vini’s visit!!! WOW, my day is flowing terribly – Lovely.

Three of us had good time talking - hogging the Blueberry muffins and choc doughnuts with hot cuppa! Gifts flowed from her; got a nice big handbag and lovely footwear …ahhh, love to be treated like this. Thanks Vins, for coming, it was rocking! H kept talking about dating you all the way, which is musty ~

H calls me “BITTI RANI” now….hahahaaaa (Cunning smile)

My parents and swetu visited us in the evening, off course with a gift cheque. It was a nice get - together and later to realize my day has almost come to an end…

This birthday, I received maximum calls from Frens and Family and was more excited like a twelve yr old, the entire day! My DIL even joked, will get a big cake and invite our flat mates for the party (Imagine all 50+yrs folks, standing around me and singing a birthday song and me cutting the cake). But – I must admit it was very sweet of him to think of making me feel special! Off course, I did not cut the cake, but replaced by Rasgullas – YUM!

A birthday:—and now a day that rose
With much of hope, with meaning rife—
A thoughtful day from dawn to close:
The middle day of human life.

H sang the end of day B'day song~~~