Am not Content...

Its 2 days since my holidays started and 48 hrs has just gone astray like a Blink!!!

Am giving an extra helping hand at home, so less unexciting on watching TV and surprisingly my workstation is shut off for a longer period than usual...

Watching AVATAR and 3 IDIOTS has been the most wonderful-breathtaking experience for the last week, which is still keeping me refreshed…A review will do no fair dealing and I can only repeat this…GO AND WATCH THEM…NOT TO BE MISSED!!!

Hubby shopped (For a change) for his coming B’day…and for a revolutionize; I returned empty handed…Its kinda edgy, since I never escape a place without my pocket lighter...something is making me restless….Am not Content, nothing is making me feel “AM Fine”, am asking for more and what? universally it’s the festive season, joy spread around so obvious and yet there is always something which makes me say “This is not enough”…Whatever….

Its will be a yr for this 01^st, I started writing my thoughts in this space…Have been going through randomly on some of the posts, which is such a lovely nostalgia, much happened in 2009….

I started the year with bagging the new job, travelling abroad for my induction which opened doors to a new world and learning, daddy’s retirement and shift, getting used to my new home and routine, those short trips with hubby and intimacy, My new car and adventure with driving and parking, making new frens and getting closer to my cousin’s, hospitals, My dream watch, celebrating my first anniversary and concluding with my sister’s marriage…oppsss, really a lot for me!!!

As a person, I can see the change this year has gifted me….

Being a Judge to myself, am a person with THIRST for knowledge, to learn new things, crave for more space, more independence, better money management, strive for happiness, better lifestyle, for better skin, hair, clothes, footwear…. everything to be raised to impressive better than preceding….Its the diminutive transformation which I keep track of for betterment….Am I there? Off course NO, as I said am not content and am not greedy….I just need to excel! I shall begin the year, focusing on my career, giving a secondary to rest of the things. Hopefully Luck favors me, making way for what I want...

Come this Thursday, I will be travelling to Jainkel a small private estate in Sakleshpur. We are a group of 9, welcoming this new yr together!!! Am excited like a little girl and no amount of me writing and talking relieve the actual pleasure am undergoing…

More and more to record; for my nostalgia later….

Holiday - Holiday....

Yipeeeeeeeeeee.......Its Holiday Season.....and am away from my routine starting today....

Wishing all great 52nd week of 2009!!!!

Wishing all a great Vacation!!!!

My Lazy yawning days starts....
I will have time to put Decoction for my morning coffee, than running away with Bournvita...I will have time to watch all those DVD's stacked up...I will have time to have that hot hot lunch taking my own time...I will sleep and sleep and get my beauty sleep...and those silly evenings doing nothing or shopping or dine...To sit with MIL and listen to her stories...gossiping and girlie talks with my old frens....and still manage to say am Bored to Hubby...and learn some cooking .....and....my count down for my trip next week has begun...

Gifts have started flowing and what more can I ask for????
First It was Vin's who got me a nice bag for my short travel and its a beauty. Then it's Kav's who gave me this Lovely hand made calender...Thanks Ladies, HUGS!!!!





well, am in this mood....

sHrU!!!

December.....what's up wth me

The year is almost EnDiNg….Am all geared to start 2010, the number looks good but lets see what’s in store for "ME"( SeLfIsH!)….I want lot of things my way..listening?

Currently am in a GUILT process and here’s the flashback….

I “over-committed” to my long time good friend and my sister last week and am so bloody feeling bad about MYSELF. Am truly guilty....head low...

Okay…. 2 weeks back, I met V who is my very long time friend in office cafeteria and a plan was worked out during the coffee discussion to Travel to Kerala during Christmas. Just us and her little son. I was so excited about the way we planned and committed asking her to book the requirements.

Similarly, I visited my sister few days back and we decided to go to shimoga (My granny’s place) during our hols next week and again with the same existing excitement I said “OK” confirmed.

Come this week, I called them both and said “I can’t make it” and am not feeling good about the fact I did not think before committing. Both of them are fuming at me, maybe will never really consider me for their next plan L((( and why would they want to listen to my Reason's, when their purpose is not solved. But its not good at my side...This is not the first time am doing this..

So my first resolution is already in making for the year and that’s…

****Never COMMIT anything, unless you are sure and double sure**** Stop trying to please everyone*****

Am so-so-so attracted to devotional songs these days…wait a min, its not a joke..Its become a part of my routine unknowingly…

It always used to be parents listening to it from 5AM until they finished their round of morning prayers. This used to be unease for us to wake up, make faces, crib to the sound and walk out for school / college. I can never relay to them, any music. I mean Music has never been my passion…

Sometimes, a hindi / kannada / English music track might catch my ears for a day or two and that’s the end. Back to some random songs while I drive..

B-U-T I think it’s my marital status (really?) or maybe this is what I ASSUME, has got me closer to some devotional songs, without which I can’t move my day. Am humming them often and feel so GOOD. I even picked up a CD (NeW ME) and this is what I feel is the making of my second resolution for new year and That’s….

****Music**** Devotional songs****More songs****a way to de-stress

Last week .......Mania

was shopping for NEW YR in Jack n Jones (Loved the collection) …

Avatar" is a good movie – a must one time watch, my expectation of the 3D effect was just not MET and not sure it’s the Theater to be blamed or the movie did lack the effect. The concept, creativity, the new thing, brilliant work, inventiveness…..all the good vocabulary in English can be allied to the miraculous work gone behind making this movie. Please go and WATCH!!!!

Hope all of you there having FUN….the feeling during December is just so different…so beautiful….

Hey, pls don't look at the below pictures of you love food and currently Hungry..Last night dinner was at

"ELEMENTS" and you must go there to bring that joy to your Tastebuds...

and...when I checked my "BMI" in the machine today, I just weight right for my height..so more food and more eating and the passion continues..

My DiL GoES ZOOmmm...OOMMM...

Yes, am so Refreshed – Rejuvenated – Revived!!!!! The meaning same, but that’s the feel am starting my week with; repeat REFRESHED!!! I need to Blame my lovely Sunday I had for this believe; indulging in FISH SPA as scheduled and rest of the fun things until late evening which self describe as a perfect Sunday..

FISH SPA – Startling set up; a class crowd and it all began with this exhilaration to just set our foot inside the Fish tank …..Kavs accompanied me to the Spa, both of us waiting with equal anticipation to try this unique foot reflexology.

Without much wait, we were taken near the Tank and asked to sink our feet inside and enjoy the session…
Just a peep, sent a chill looking at those hundreds of tiny, brown fishes waiting to attack us.We plunged out feet inside and those petite garra rufa fishes rushed near our feet and started off with their business ….
Initially it looked YUCK….felt YIKKKESSSSSSS….TICKLISHHHHH…”OPSSS, I CAN’t do this” kinds….and then we tried indulging again…It’s the same shriek…yiikkessssss…what’s this??? And then a loud laughter and same noises from us… We were overjoyed at the sight and feel; screeched at the same time, taking our own sweet time to get used to those hundred’s of them all over our feet.…It takes a minimum of 10 mins to get used to the feeling and sight, and unknowingly you start to love their work. Initially we opted for 10 min, but just could not resist the amazing feel, extended to 10 more mins and before they said its TIME UP; we stretched to 30 mins and those were amazing …They suck the dead skin away, slowly relaxing you…We were offered a free 10 min shoulder / Hand ,massage adding intensity to Rejuvenation …
Anyone who has not tried, should give it a shot once…It’s just worth the skill
(Atleast the TICLKE)

Overall Loved the 30 min special healing therapy and with this not enough, There was road side chat session with the gang post the SPA, road side shopping and before I could realize, the sun was saying good bye…We cancelled our Dinner plan to eat light at home…
So no complains to start the week all FRESH and HAPPY!!!
(Am I not content with so little things in life?)

Dad and mom are vacationing in Shimoga for a week, while am waiting for mine!!!!

Friday LiVE…..

Friday Live...from Shru...

Tried hard to watch the movie “BLUE” today, but just could not enjoy it at all…
The sharks, fishes, water, music, Akki, Sanju baba, Sexy Lara, my fav Zayed, Kat’s “Ball Closure Rings” style, the audacious swim, the bikes & Racing, the Glamour quotient, the Hype, The Dialogues…”NOTHING” made me sit up and watch this movie … I switched off half way and planning to take the next DVD from the rack “DO KNOT DISTURB” scheduled for the noon show!!!

I realised my desire ... 1) Lower Lip piercing 2) Tattoo on my right arm say “OM”

OFFCOURSE, I don’t DARE both of this now…. have masses of persuasive in line, which will take away time and mental health and end up just not longing anything…..Let me be optimistic and say the feeling is only for “NOW”!!!!!

Do you also have a secret desire like this?

Finally my December trip is scheduled on the last day on this yr

, for 3 days in Sakleshpur (Yippee)…It was very tough to conclude, fingers crossed, prayers silently ON from my side, since I need this 2 day break – BADLY – make that VERY BADLY…but something imp from FIL’s side, might be a priority then…..

As soon as we are back, its hubby’s birthday. So my new year will start off with his Birthday celebration. He is turning “30” and the feeling is so good - out of the ordinary – am personally so excited for this special number!!!

I badly want to check with him, if the feel is any different …”The 30 feel”???

He continues to look Younger day by day…

Anyways; people like him get lucky to party with team on a Friday evening, while I get to sit in front of my buddy here and just type these words..Realized how much I lack friends in life…

Thanks for all of you there, who flowed the lovely names, for the COFFEE SHOP. My fren has finalized 5 names, which will conclude to “1” later…I shall post the name, once it’s finalized by those 3 friends. Now, it’s up to them to choose. Next step will be on finalizing the Interiors….yet to get more info on this and planning will start…

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LIVE......from Television News and My Views...

oh HELL with Politics and its Drama..Its reaching Rakhi Sawanth's level ( and much more) or Can I even compare to anything worse (?), which is full of false Nautanki, than anything real or Policy or whatever little truth...First it was all Drama b/w our beloved CM with Reddy bro's taking over the news channel, our time, thoughts, Government's abundance money, patience and then one fine day they shake hands and smile and more drama continues...we believe, we Live normally

( P.s Personally I like Rakhi Sawanh for her talent, so the comparison)

Now, Its its passed to our neighbouring state...what's that...JAI TELANGANA???

Oh come on, I wanted something better on a Friday evening than pained by this another Drama taken to a much better level by our Chandrashekar Rao ( he, who cannot even walk on self), fighting so religiously to dividing the state.For WHAT? For Policy? For betterment of the Country or state? WHATEVER buddy, do u even realise what r you putting at stake? Why does the Bus have to burn for this fight? What was that "satyagraha"?? ( Uff, Gandhi follower's)???? do they have reports justifying what will be the Special effects and improvement post dividing the land...will the Flood affected people and area be back to normal is a miracle time? Are they even looking at those people now? they are only people on streets with banners causing so much havoc to the normal public life and more money in the flow like floods....It PAINS to be looking at so much go waste, while they all sit and do more damage in the name of Politics and Policy...Am so sorry for the victim Rosiah here, I believe YSR considered to him as one of the most knowledgeable & Matured man, at 77 he is fighting a never ending, ever unwanted Battle!!!!

Can Congress act seriously, before our Mayawati Devi starts accessing her active mind and make cry, following such stupid acts down south? I hear she wants to divide her state too...Divide and WHAT? Why can't this time and money be used for something better ( sounds like Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder?)

Atleast am ANGRY and venting out.....Congress Maiyya, Can you unfold this?

This is what we are presenting to our future gen!!! More division,more Drama....More news, More money..MORE TAX for me and you!!!

JAI HIND!!!!

A morning without coffee....

" Coffee is the best thing to douse the sunrise with. ~Drew Sirtors"

I love-COFFEE...Do you??? If yes, then please ahead

My very good friend at work is starting his own coffee shop; along with 2 of this friends as partners.
He is a software engineer by profession, but moving ahead to make his dream come true...His passion-COFFEE.....

Last week, he finalized the place and interiors is in planning stage. As exciting as it might get and sound, the first step is to finalise the name for his cafe in progress....There are few names in our list, but nothing reconciling with the ardor...I request you ( My friends, cousins, close frens, blog frens, rest of human kind...) to please take a min and think of a nice name and do leave it in comments column.

A nice-creative name for a coffee shop; which will give a feel of an aromatic freshly brewed coffee...

How’s life at your end?

What’s’ you’re Raashe baby!!!

Am a Piscean as per English paper/Calendar and Mesh as per my birth certificate….

Which one should I consider while reading my Horoscope for the day?

OFFCOURSE, the one which speaks GOOD!!!!

Back to the MOVIE, What’s your RAASHE….

Good entertainment, on a Sunday morning, when you have nothing interesting to do, but this DVD. The reason for the story to start and conclude is STUPID (JUST STUPID); doesn’t make any sense nor any practicality attached.

But the process of seeing 12 girls from different sun signs was AMAZING! Though again, not a very practical move, am speaking in pure “entertainment terms”; for a lady like me. For me, it was the process of imagining each girl in her circumstances and hows it like to meet a guy for the first time arranged by the parents. What to talk, how to dress up, how to behave and how not to…..I have been through this process (which was taken carelessly from my side, since I was already in LOVE); but I did go through!!!! It rushed back memories (though not pleasant then) but TODAY since am in a different situate, I could afford to IMAGINE and think, how’s it like!!!!

I loved Ms.Chopra’s clothes, acting to-be bride and all the things attached to Gujarati family, attitude and style!!! Loved Harman as an NRI, who was so unruffled, balanced and took the flow of meeting girls and enjoying each experience. Loved every scene where he meets the girl and wished there was more drama; than those unwanted songs.

I loved – I loved – I was entertained – thrown into this imaginary world again!

In lay life realism, I will never every be able to meet a person for today, talk, have coffee and settle on the leading decision of my life. That’s also cos; I always knew what I want and ensured I took all routes to convince that he is was the one for me. It’s never easy for Parents to accept that their son/daughter choosing their spouse. The attitude of most of Indian parents will never change when it comes to few things in LIFE – NEVER. Maybe when am a parent, I might understand that, but that’s to see.

Else, I love the fact that I lead my life based on my decisions and awareness, even ready to take the short fall/compromises if am faced to.

I wonder, what about those people who fall in love but never have the courage to convince their parents? What about those people in remote parts / Villages, where even before they know what MARRIAGE is, they are just done with it. What about those, who have parents who will emotionally pull them back and get them marriaged to else?

“WHAT if” – exist for many reasons, circumstances and diverse for different class of society, caste and dogma. Such a miscellaneous topic, which can be never ending…..lemme stop here.

ONE LIFE! SHORT LIFE!

so....How’s life at your end?

Gugee – this for you, though COPIED, :(

This Day I Married My Best Friend

This day I married my best friend
...the one I laugh with as we share life's wonderous zest,
as we find new enjoyments and experience all that's best.
...the one I live for because the world seems brighter
as our happy times are better and our burdens feel much lighter.
...the one I love with every fiber of my soul.
We used to feel vaguely incomplete, now together we are whole.

AVAREKAI...Yum

Come NOVEMBER, its the season of Avarekai ( COW BEANS) in namma karnataka!!!
You get it in HEAPS in the market with any vegetable vendor, a treat to people who love "Delicios SOUth Indian food"...a favourite since my childhood...
( Am not sure, if this is available in other pats of the country???)

There are varities of dishes you can make out of this bean, which leaves you with a refreshing taste in the end, wanting more and more...I just can't stop eating them...

While mom prepares saaru and huli ( well known as saambar and Rasam) with Avarekai, she also mixes it with Akki rotti ( roti made from rice flour) roasted; upma, rice bath......the tang just "out of world"

MIL takes it to a different level altogether, by showcasing her "ANDHRA" stlye cooking and making the same sambar in a different style. She grinds Onion with methi, coconut, ginger, tamrind paste and coriander and mixes to the bean sambar which gives a special savor, asking for more and more....
pls do try and lemme know how much you loved it.

I don't have exact recipes; but post was more to say what an important vegetable it is for us for next 2 months, so much a part of our routine and how much a loved bean it is :)
Am loving it ...
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RENU....u wanna try? Are you familiar with this vegetable?

IdLe mInD is.......???

Its my friend's wedding today and I decided not to go.....and am regretting this decision “NOW”; so mad with somewhat that's irritating my senses....I had planned to attend his marriage, had planned my attire and accessories; but convincing myself with reasons, which goes like this…… its cos Hubby is not here to drive me till the wedding hall, since I will be draped in lovely kanceepuram saree and other one is I can't take an auto so far; all dressed up!...I can't DRIVE, when I don't know the way ( rubbish)....

Am not convinced with my own reasons and HELL, this is doing no good to my IDLE mind today.....

I sometimes can’t reason out the “new” me and surprises as to how well I can shield myself and let my mind wander to unwanted torture.

It’s definitely not cos GU is not here, and so skillfully reason my mind as HIM. Am much independent to drive my day/days, than expecting him to be here, take me out or sit beside me - whatever…I have had my fun days with my frens, I have had my business travels every year, from which I carry fond memories…but what’s this after marriage? I have somewhere lost a part of myself!!!!!

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Little good was done to me after reading LIFE from times today. It started with “SPIRITUALITY” to Emraan’s fav cuisine….The best was the poem I read and copying it below!!!!

“Your children are not your children:

They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.

they come through you but not from you,

And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,

For they have their own thoughts.

You may house their bodies but not their souls,

For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,

which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them,

but seek not to make them like you...”

-- Children by Kahlil Gibran

There is a reason why I refer the above, since there is an issue with my far off cousin with his parents and that has resulted in my debate with myself from past week about the sensitive relation b/w parents and the kids! It’s the most challenging task, pheww..... But unless u r a parent and going through this phase with your kid at every stage of his growing yrs, you never know the actual FEEL!

Currently reading “THE CASE OF THE BONSAI MANAGER”, where it talks of being intuitive in the first chapter…AND instead of imaging the management theory it talks of, my mind was being “intuitive” that am not going to be a part of the 2 trips I planned mentally this December. What more can go wrong??????? being a "Piscean" trust me ; being intuitive works so well for me…personally…

By the way, have you noticed the sun shine in Bangalore in December? I have those frizzy memories of my childhood, where it used to be so chill and gloomy and its just vanished now!!! I miss Bangalore winter and this is definitely not the same this year...I don't like the sun shine in December....I don't like it; that the clothes are all dried up by evening, which reminds me of summer...

Oh YES, today looks like a tirade day for me....

****Back to Travel and Living now…happy Sunday to all…

MIL’s cooking “Baalekai playa” ( raw banana) and “avarekai saaru” ( cow bean), and papad which might prove to be the only thing which am gagagaaaaa over this Sunday - meal!!!

Something Unexpected....

hubby called me now...Some issue in the Family front and he is leaving to Hyderabad tonight...
HELL, am just not feeling good at all..He is leaving so unexpectedly and though its for a genuine cause, its not doing any good to my emotions....Will have to thrust myself next 3 days (or) never know how long, waiting..gggg.....rrrr...rrr...for him to come back now....

I know its silly, its child like, Its immaturity talks, but this is the FEEL..This is the mood currently and where else can I crib apart from this space here, which is all ment for me....and it just doesnt laugh back at me..

Without you gu...Its just so different, even before experiencing it...especially when you didnt give me time to mentally prepare...:(
My weekend will be just myself and am not going outdoor nor enjoying...am in Solitude...am angry.

..During Kabini Trip...!!!!.

Monday evening.....

****A red travel bag, a Sexy cabin baggage ( really cool!!), loads of anklets, ear-rings, wooden fancy neck pieces, heaps of tops from Scullers and a stole is what Vins shopped last evening, while I stood and “Watched”!!!!! (Is this me?))
YES- I resisted from not ShOpPiNg...Did not pick anything and CHEERS to me, after having paid that huge credit card bill 2 days ago!!!!

It was a nice Monday evening for me, since we met up after work and indulged in this unlimited fun; a rejuvenation, worth trying during start of week! After a long time, I had the road side pani-poori and look at me, jumping at such small things now... a distinction; to my taste buds...

**** Am going over and over my last Kabini trip snaps today, which means it’s an indication I need another trip, away from Bengalooru. It’s been a controversial subject trying to marry lot of things and plan that needed trips time and again for “ME”. I love travelling and feel time is flying away, while I just allow my mind to idle and lead a routine. We have an option to go to Ooty again with Neha and Gautham, but foresee some issues, so on “hold”…..We have been planning something during end of dec ( ahh bliss!) and the discussion with the gang continues and looks never ending…I have other challenges to face under the roof, once the actual planning is done…
See,I love having the tickets, hotel booking and schedule planned in front of me days ahead of; so it’s a motivation to lead the routine!!!!

**** It’s a plan to go to FISH SPA next weekend…Heard the reviews in television and internet and am dead curious to try the Pedicure in an innovative style…For a change, it will be those firang “FISHES” kissing your feet, taking away those dead cells, cleansing them and leaving your feet feel like “wow”!!! Am for sure to keep this plan “ON” with Kavys….More review and drama, once am done with the special treatment and taken those pics!!!! WISH I could ask for “more” and walk to UB City and check those LV bags (is it really worth those zero’s?)

Ok –ok, back to reality…Only SPA, then a hot cuppa, then back home!!!!

Did we realise, its DECEMBER!!!! Another year back and a fresh start again!!!