Need to Visit LALBAGH

Jessica said she visited Lalbagh over the weekend!
I was Amazed….I live less than 2 kms from Lalbagh and last visited in my childhood. Am ashamed completely.

LALbagh- one of the best parks in our Bengalooru, a unique Indian attraction which offers rare sight of greenery, Flaura collection , amazing glass house , reptiles, flowers a treat to our eyes ( when I last visited 20 yrs back),!!
Now, its must be 100 fold beautiful, offering more to the deprived bean city.

Jessica, who has visited our country for the first time, made it a point to check with localities and lavish her Sunday evening in Lalbagh, her thought so avant-garde; rather shopping in the over-rated cashmere shop in MG Road (which was obvious) or dining at the Leela!!! She was there at the MTR for food ( Hugs-Hugs)

I jumped, listening to her ongoing experience in Lalbagh and checking the photos; culpable inside that I have not made it there inspite of planning every now and then, city I so proudly talk about and boast of yet places like this not explored.

Tippu’s palace in Bangalore? Never knew until date.

On a separate note, made a couple of calls to my Ex-Infy team mates today. Felt relieved. It’s like a energy drink for me!
I still Miss the overall “sense” being with a team, since I don’t work in a team/group anymore. This was my CHOICE, after all the unwanted-painful experience.
I still go back nostalgic about the fantastic days and erudition from the Team I highly thought of and treasured the most. It was such a beautiful experience, working with the group, taking troubles together-cribbed, solving issues together, and having fun and work towards stabilizing our new process with the tough clients. The tea – smoking-lunch breaks so beautifully de-stressing. The games-gossips-team building-stretch hours-trips planned for long weekends……This is the Beauty!

Later it was painful for its own reasons, situations, new boss and people, where I made a choice to quit and work in a different profile, where I will not have to handle a team or people, ensuring not to be mis-judged at all. Yet to come in terms to working alone.

I make it a point to keep in touch with my people and recognize my Don’ts when in a group; after this episode. We always learn our lessons, when in distress. Don’t we? It all happens for good. I value my team (ex); much more than I did before. I learn to work on my own now, being very independent, capturing the events previously; for my decision making today!
Am the possessor of my good work and escalations….Its a different world.

All for a reason…

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Am reading shobha de's latest blog on her Africa trip experience...Something churned my stomach...

"I asked a prominent crime writer I was sharing a panel with in Capetown, what the explanation could be to this ugly phenomenon. She lowered her voice ( there was a predominantly Black and Coloured audience, while she herself was White ). Her response was scarey and troubling. She told me, “ My father is a pediatric surgeon. Most of the surgeries he performs are on little girls – their private parts…. to reconstruct torn vaginas. Open the papers and you will find at least seven or eight reported rapes a day. Most victims are underage kids. Ours is a very, very unstable society. I put the blame squarely on apartheid and what it did to destroy the human spirit. Our people don’t know the meaning of love.’’

Love Nautanki-Drama and Travelling

Love aaj Kal…..Dil bole Hadippa….Whats your rashee…wake up sid…..etc…etc…
Before I lose track of these movies and let them play in some channel one fine day, I better start buying my own DVD’s and watch them over a weekend!!!!

After much hitch - shouting’s and vigor, H accompanied me and frens to “Kaminey”. While rest of us loved the movie, my hubby dear almost slept in the Theatre…choo chweeettt, but not done! The issue is H doesn’t like Theatre’s and Movies and I loveee..eeeeee…eeee Bollywood!

Back to my cribbings….I have decided…I love movies and all the nautanki, fashion, drama, so am doing it on my own from now on…I need to book a time at home, so the TV is all to myself for 3 hrs…and demand a shelf from H for my DVD collection!

Nothing interesting in TV, post Rakhi ki swayamwar….My interest level is directly proportional to the “NAUTANKI” quotient it has in them…Loved the show and waiting for something like that to be aired, so I have a chilled out time without taking too much into head.


Travelling.......
We are planning to visit Mysore (YES-AGAIN!) with 2 newly married couples. My BIL and His BIL family. We will be playing Host, if the plan works out! There’s another plan, to the same place with NG couple, but with a difference. We will try something adventureous with them! Am excited with both weekend plans, same place, different agenda!!! Wow!!!!

With newly married couples, its going to be visitng places, nice lunch-dinner, walk in the garden, pictures, palace, boating, etc..etc…

With NG, its going to be early morning drive ( 3AM) to check the sunrise in gopalswamy betta, loads of pictures from G, Heavy hot breakfast in Milari, gocarting, bowling, Luncheon and more games….drive back

My Italy Trip is soon approaching. Its going to be official, yet am making lots of plans personally…With very less hopes, its gonna work. But my mind keeps reminding me that I will be travelling and staying alone, which freaks me out!!!! I can’t do this, after what I went through in LA….My plans better work….
Sin will join me for a weekend from London….Vini, Bharu might plan their girlie vacation there, if it’s cost-centric (WISH-WISH) and lastly Hubby, NG Couple might join me for the last weekend of mine over there….WISH-WISH-WISH
Else, all I will be doing is CRIBBING and Blogging AND Back to Cribbing…

All the best to all my trips, May it work like the way I have planned….
post all this Hungama, I want to Visit GOA ( Never been there) and FRINGE FORD ( V missed it last yr) and REST in Bangalore!!

Love directly proportional to TRUST & Vice VeRsA

Am Crazy about my Hubby….
Have I said this before? Oh yes-yes a 100 times in a week and I feel the same about him today…every min….

What is it, that makes me feel this way…
He is so unconditional and understands me just right….He knows how to handle me, knows my strength and my weakness…He is there, when am my mood’s off and ensures its handled!!!!

He is there to smile and give me a hug, when am jumping with joy….iTs all about him and his presence….

Today am feeling crazy about him cos….Its the way he HANDLES me during the times I feel odd-sick-irritated-worried-cribbing-crying…all the things which he can easily get frustrated…

He manages to smile and sit next to me in such state of affairs and this is all I need to come back smiling and face life…Am too emotional and worry all minute things that happen around me. I try to please everyone around me and land up DUD! But he is there and this is all I know…

On a separate note….
I heard something very claptrap from V today….Its about a couple who married after dating for yrs and the bad phase that the lady is facing today….blah..blah…
Listening to it, was so scary. How can someone, whom you would have loved-trusted-intimate-a soulmate – everything just let you down or cheat you? What about all the trsut you had in him and shared your life….Isnt he supposed to be there with you lifelong?
Wasn’t there a promise made, during the marriage? Will the lady be able to face the consequences, so easily created by him? Didn’t she leave her parents for him? Didn’t she fight? Its soo bloody tough and helpless feel…

Its bothering me from last 2 hrs and the questions like HOW CAN HE just bothers me…it must be so tough to accept a reality like that from a person whom you are sharing your world with!

All I need is to go back home and hold my hubby’s hand tight and tell him, how much he means to me….He is my world and my Trust ….He is just EVERYTHING- GODSEND!

And H, if you reading....
Pls control your temper at times....

Small Thank-you to my CoUsInS!

I want to Thank my cousins - NANDA and LAVANYA....
There is no specific reason, but they have made a small difference to me - a change - a pleasure- a memory - Inexplicable!!!

Thank you Renu, My blogger fren for making my evening! you always make me feel better:)
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V is enjoying in Calcutta, she is there for Durga Pooja..She being my closet fren in Life, got mixed up with her B'day date and wished a day later...Am Embarassed...she would never do this to me and How could I? sorry sweety...
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My credit card bills never show ZERO. Am unable to manage my expenses...I first need to stop planning and promising and things will be in place. Am BAD at MONEY matters!!! booooooo
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Its raining everyday in my Bengaluru and thats one thing, which keeps me moving at times. Love the RAIN...shall REPEAT- I love the RAIN!!!!!
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I need more frens near home...am going Eccentric without a change in my routine....
am not sure what Can I actually do apart from "work-Home-Work"....
Fountainhead is going slow..am not getting the hand of it....I neeed a good book beside me
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My sister is in Shimla currently with BIL..I need to pack my bags and head somewhere...where? when? Have asked her to shop for me...shopping somehow doesnt bring out the enthu in me...
Is it cos of the pro-marriage feelings?
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With all these feelings, I better oil my hair and massage my head in the night and ensure get a good sleep...Am working tomorrow, while rest of them enjoy the national holiday....:))

My Jenu is Married!

Yippeeee....EEEE....eee....., the four day long Marriage celebration is finally over and I still have the hangover!!!! My priority is S-L-EE--EEEPPPP
My sister is married now, the marriage function was enormously pleasurable, emotional…just picture Perfect!!!

Am back from my mom’s house to my Husband’s place….feeling dissimilar…but I missed H…
He was a total freak in the wedding, impressed my entire aunt group!!!!

The tough part was yesterday, when we went to leave my sis to her In-Law’s place…she cried uncontrollably. I could see my dad silent, his eyes red….mom was hugging her….I was shattered….It should be a happy moment, but suddenly we realized, its just our parents from today onwards….all four of us, no more live under same roof….It tough….it will take time…

Looking at the old pictures at home….
I see my mom’s pregnant photo. She is absolutely beautiful…Love the snap…
See some pictures of all four of us together….miss our coffee time together and my dad’s rubbish songs…will miss all that we four so intimately did together at home….

She just called now….BIL and Sis are leaving for their Honeymoon tomorrow and packing stuff…choo cuuteee….Wishing them a lovely life together!!!!

HouSe fULL!!!

oPPSSSS....I need to search my belongings in my house....My house is sweetly flooded with my cousins and relatives....marriage is soon approaching and the heat is building up...

Am silently working ( So hard to keep youself silent where there are more than 10 ppl at home) and listening to all of them...All the women are ...uff...how much they can go on and on yaa....my house is not silent even for a sec....Few are laughing loudly, few gossiping, gfew running here and there....my house is in MESS!!!!!

Dad is enjoying his brother's company ( grrr)...All my lessons to him go waste, when he is with his sibling...

All I want is my parents to have a good time marrying off their second daughter...Hugged my sis twice today...will miss her...

Today's menu was amazing....we eat only south Indian Veg...yum yum saaru, greens palya, paysa, kai gangi, gojju, hapla.....

Life's Lesson's

I faced some realities about LIFE from last 1week and it continues to haunt me..BADLY.....
Am not okay - JUST NOT OK with lot of things, am facing .....

mY THOUGHTS..
> You need to either be RICH ( let me correct, very RICH) or have heavy INFLUENCE in life. Else, its SICK to face few instances...

> Better give priority to HEALTH, even if its a small pain...At times, u neglect and u will be faced to accept the unexpected.

> Have a stone like heart, else u can't survive...

> save enough money, before you retire...

> You can't buy peace....be prepared to survive with shattered mind too....

> Most importantly, in INDIA - You need to have a 'son', Its makes a lot of difference...

I always used to make faces, when people used to ask, if I didnt have a brother....Now a days, I feel, I should had one..My Parents would have had a easier Life....

( All the above points is purely MY OPINION; based on what I have faced)

I bloody no more want to have this heavy heart, so came here to write...hopefully makes my day easier...
Wish can sometimes, shut from the REALITY...
all I can do at times is just PRAY...i just can't think of anything else....

Should I blame my parents or the Environment I was bought up in; for me being so sensitive and emotional??
Arent there ppl who are facing bigger issues and trouble than me?
I question WHY ME?
Still I almost broke down everyday...from last 1 week..
and writing with such a mixed temper, feelings and emotions....make me feel better

Isnt this supposed to be a galla time for me, since its my Sister's marriage....why now?

Weekend and Rain

What a combination....Its beginning of my weekend and its Raining!!!!

Anything more you can ask for in LIFE? Am going to make this a Lazy start; but what a boost for my busy day!!!!

BoLt from the blue package - NY Trip in 2005

It's been a very very long day for me...I have half the mind to just hit the bed, its 11:40PM; but I need to record what’s going through me. It’s a small glee and for MY SAKE, need to just pen this… I came back from work early today since am not keeping well (terrible terrible COLD), haven’t checked mails from noon. Am worn-out, yet pulled myself to log into my office mails.

Accidently checked my personal mail, bolt from the blue package was a mail from my childhood fren who recently vacationed in New-YORK with her hubby and went through the melancholy of our official tour back in 2005..
On a day like this, I never expect an old fren to mail about our almost 5yr back trip, along with those snaps…

My sleep went astray; went through all 250 snaps ( few of them, I was checking for first time, since we went to different projects later)… I almost recalled the entire trip, more from the asinine angle, from the bonding of our friendship to our silly talks to freaking until mid0night in Times square and running to catch the last train from the Port station…our days were long and petite sleep, with cooking process taking turns, evening tea near the lake; at the back of our homestead …

It was Beautiful, erudition know-how, to be away from home and supreme ruler and see the Fast life first time ever. We were quite young then, and away from parents; exploring all possibilities to do everything under the Sky in the beautiful unknown city!

Special thanks to the Lady for bringing those lovely reminiscences back…Am so touched! After the mail and snap process, am sure will never be able to experience a journey-like that every again! Its an exception of its own kind… It’s was the mix of Age-mind-set-companionship which made it a deadly combo…

Am secretly laughing the way I dressed, looked and thought styled!!! Heheheee… H will have a good laugh looking at them.

Ghoshhh..Its me!!!!! LoViNG it!

@ My second Home

Am at my Mom’s house for 2 weeks…..Its the first time post my marriage, am going to stay for this long…..There is a purpose, to be a part of my sister’s marriage preparation from the scratch! " "A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost"

Its bitter-sweet experience am going through from last few months…The moment I heard about her marriage proposal, I was stuck for a moment…It’s a mix of Happiness and at the same time a fear in me….she is going to be married….Will she be happy? Will she have to compromise a lot? How will she cope up with all responsibilities? Blah...Blah….
I do laugh it out-of-the-way, since am married and extremely happy!!!
So I call it a sundry feel….

2 weeks from today, my sister will be a married to my TO-BE-BIL...Preparations have started…oodles to do, since we form the girl’s side.
I would love to organize it in a systematic way and make this more fun, but my parents have their own plan and their way of arranging things…
Invitations are distributed….One of the room is names in our house is called‘Marriage room’ where loads of stuffs are dumped to pack….Lovely Kancheepuram saree collection kept piled…talks on Jewellery, makeup, dresses keep happening all the time… It’s going to be a 3 day function and loads of rituals to ensure the couple lead a happy-Understanding married life…Its her special day…

Am already missing my home and Husband L Its so unlike to be away from regular and all the engaging things we used to talk-fight-thrash out and now its just Phone….Its less than 24 hrs am away and I MISS HIM!!!!

Its such a exquisite feel, you get so fond of , emotionally involved with hubby and face the reality when u r away…am worried, if he ate well, if he is sleeping well, what is he doing at this time..did he have a good time at work…what if he is not ok...he called, but am not with him to hold his hand and look into his eyes to know How was his dayL
.I love this bond and so happy; I found U!!!!

Just another week....

I always face Monday blues…lazy to wake up in the morning or even the thought of going to work. Its just the thought of Monday, which makes my morning go bizarre…..
H’s call on Monday morning, while I was checking some visa details in office just made my day! He had the pass to the “Hasya sanje” (evening for comedy); on occasion of ganesha festival near our place and was to be staged by three dreadfully eminent comedians from Karnataka. I love them all and thus, the day flowed smooth just with the thought of it!
The evening was awfully entertaining, with H and myself just laughing all the way; enjoying the Humor, moral which was mixed to bring out the beauty of the comedy. They took instances from their daily life and had the ardor to present it in front of thousands of audience and conclude every bit with the reasoning, moral and humor which made us not only laugh, but to sit back and think and say WOWWW!!!! Who doesnt love to laugh and who doesnt like comedy...Its the best way to de-stress...LAUGH!!!! Cheers to them for making my Monday!!









I need daily dosage of Tender coconut….Best drink after wine ;)









Was watching TV now..…
The girl starts crying since her classmates are making fun of her sitting behind her for one the instances she acted foolishly…
She walks away, crying…..
She is stopped by her very good fren, checking the reason for her sorrow…She says she is been jabbed by her fren’s; talking rubbish about her; making her feel so low…
He asks – WHY DO YOU CARE?
She says - I do care, it hurts….
He says – I understand it hurts…pls do not show that in front of them that you care for what they speak…don’t show that u sweat for the instance…

Isn’t it right? His words flowed straight into my head and heart realizing that it always hurts; when people talk rubbish about us…Very few people are the ones, who really don’t care and I don’t fall in that category…
The best stroke is to; not to reflect our concern in front of them! To act the unexpected…chill!!! Is it easy? Sometimes some category of people get really jobless in life, to be over concerned about others and their life and tend to over wiggle their tongue…what a waste of time…I keep stressing the point “Live and Let Live” …Life!!


Weekend is almost nearing...ice-cream-date with N&G couple is planned for Friday evening..Going to try something different this time...