Sooper Saturday !!!

Its one of the rare days, where the kitchen is not clamped and am not running around aimlessly giving bath to my son and helping MiL at the kitchen, at times wondering what should I really be doing????

 Its the mess which is deleted today and for a change started off as a nice, early-lazy-warm Saturday.....

Sipped tea in peace, while Sam ran around the house asking questions and trying to open up the fridge ( his fav this week) and searching for ice cream stock.....plan for first half of day is breakfast at hotel and hair cut for sammy boy; both turned out to be very rejuvenating for me....Sammy also gulped his breakfast without making a fuss, while we relished out hot dily-vada combo at Bugle rock grounds with friends....Its the most feel to just sit and eat; with nothing at back of mind, without having to worry to rush back home and to kitchen!!!! Its just this simple start I crave for, missing every inch in my routine.....

I will be off to RRnagar to meet my sis and Ani, we will be sending our evening together,might cook or just decide to sit and be served for dinner !!!!

Finished reading the long pending sidney's " tides of memory"...

More books pending for this month....

A very special month for us... loads of plan, trip planned, shopping in wishlist....looking forward!!!!!

Shrutzz

Me and Sammy Boy!!!!

I want to start writing again....
Its not easy since I have too many things that has happened in last few years and wish I had the time to pen down all the events....
Its really been a roller coaster ride, Mixed with enormous happiness, regrets, sad, cried for silly things, hyper activities which never existed before, questions , a routine....liike we have formed our own sweet world together - With my lil one....

He will soon be 3 yr old and its quite surprising how fast time has flown, felt me with little time to sit and analyse hows it really been all the way.

As I write this post, my son is in real pain, since he has caught some infection and has mouth ulcers..Its BAD! he cries in pain and it HURTS like hell for me...I can hardly remember when my son cried in pain last; since he is someone who doesnt sulk easily...UNLIKE me, who likes to be unhappy and have started liking it ..now thats a different story!

few things about us.....
> we have a routine together.....Am always with my son; never leaving him wherever I go and he is very much a part of everything I do....he needs me when he wakes up and to go back to bed...He needs me to feed him still and to drop him school...

> I want to be a hermetic ( in right sense) , and do things which is good for him and pour in lot of knowledge and disciple .....I keep reminding myself that there should be a purpose for having me quit my job and the sense of feeling is growing so strong as I see my son grow tall!

> School admission is a priority and wish he gets into one of the good schools. Now, I realy think whats it with Good school? I only want my son to understand that there can be no short cut for studies / academics so my No.1 priority would be installing that pleasure of understanding that and crave for knowledge....Thirst to know more and do well in the formative years.No.2 would be sports , wanna see him enjoy a sport...Means the school needs to have a good campus / a playground. No.3 the crowd needs to be Elite, since he gets his friends from here.....

More in my next post......
Shrutzzzz

SCHOOL TIME!!!!

My baby starts his L2 montesorri from today and its such a sooper cool day to see him run around the house and get his stuff in place and send him off to school......happy time bangara!!!!

Happy 2014!!!

Its been good so far :) I would like to keep away all the negative thoughts aside and en down all the lovely things thats happening from past 4 days...

Dec 31st was pleasant one, with my usual work at home and for my son... the excitement started to pick up by evening...A good refreshing bath was soothing to get rid of all my tiredness. While I was preparing tea for myself, Anu, Samith and Saara visited us. Samrudh was too ecited to see them and played with them ( relief to me), while Anu and myself chit chatted with tea.....
It was 7, when we fed Sammu with early dinner and had to get ready for our 31st evening, I wore my new WH kurta with black leggings and my new diamond studs and along with freids we were off to Chianti.
We started with Wine, followed by 5 course meal-all Italian and concluded with dessert; all while relishing every bite and having a good time talking on various topics. The comity at the dinner table was good and what better way to say good bye to 2013.....

December 2013!!!!!

Last few days of 2013, weather has been really chill in Bangalore.....I love my sweaters and its all out in open!
Samrudh has been sick for last few days, its some kind of viral doing rounds in the air. Its been dragging and sleepless nights and troublesome mornings continue to haunt us...Cant expect him to express whats he going thro and the cold, cough, fever, allergy has been making my son dull and restless :(

He seem to be better today, forcefully dragged him to school, walked back guilty thinking again for the 100th time, AM-I-DOING-RIGHT?

Its vacation time and there is no way I want all the health issue to spoil our plans....Am hopeful that Sammu will be fine and be set to enjoy his holidays. H is on vacation too and the very though is so exciting.
Sammu has his Christmas carnival at school trow and this is our First one of such. Am very excited to take him for the 2 hr celebrations and the dress code is red and white. Post that will be weekend and hopefully its a lazy Saturday and we are off to Mysore for a short vacation. Need to have a plan as to what Sammu will enjoy and need to take him out for some fun!!!!

More in my next post......

Anxiety

Samrudh started Montessori and its almost 2 months now......I have been very excited to start school for him for one reason - he will get to play with kids and learn from them and have fun. I had started to get restless and impatient trying to keep him engaged and this came as a breather to me and hopefully to him ( Assume!).
Preparations were in full speed, shopping for his school bag , clothes and water-bottle...I kept visitng GB, to make sure he is all set :)

Now that we almost complete 2 months ( with Dasara and Diwali hols in b/w); my expectations from a 2 yr old to happily go to school is just not reasonable. It pains to see him cry even before we start his routine in the mornings. Feeding him Milk and contemplating when to feed his Breakfast and hurrying him up is another story by itself.
 Like today, he cried all the way to school and held me tight; pleading me not to send him away. I was almost in tears ( first time); feeling deep guilt and made me rethink on my way back home that if am doing the right thing...Am I selfish? Yes, I need some time for myself, given that I have been with him 24/7 from the time he is born...Thoughts kept troubling me for three hours and mindlessly I cooked and cleaned, until it was time to get him back home..He seem to be fine, silent and maybe tired.... maybe he had fun running around and playing with toys, but will not know nor can he express. This feeling will continue to haunt me until I see him off happily:)