Stay Calm....

Dear me, STAY CALM
Its about my mind, cleansing it and preparing it to stay calm.
REASONS.....

> Am restless and stressed physically, unable to move freely, those less frequent contraction pains and confusion of should I GO TO DOC OR NO, etc..... and totally accept it and am completely ok with the reasoning here.

> The frequent questioning from all around as to whats happening...I mean its the family, neighbors and frens who CARE but its giving me negative vibes of WHAT ANSWER shuld I be giving me here? I just can't assume pains and go !
On contrary, varities of food flows in for me and I relish them without regret.

> AT Home, 24/7 !

> Post delivery "ADVISES", which is important but am not able to give it a calm ear for its reasons the way its put across, sometimes getting too repetitive.

well, post this venting out session should feel better. I need to relax!

39th WeEk...still counting

Seems like my lil'one is cozying up inside, just not wanting to come out. I have been spending most of the time to carefully watch its movements or any signs of Labor. Added to this, its hubby's constant questioning on whats happening and the "waiting" which adds to my confusion and checking the date again the calender and wondering when's the d-day!!!
well, this might be the case of most of women in their last week of pregnancy....

WEEKEND was good, added to the wait and checking the symptoms I managed to continue my frequent walks outside home and catch up with hubby ensuring he listens to all my crib in life, eat all that I feel like and best was the unplanned Lunch with N&G at Pai. I did my li'l shopping on linen's at Fab India and have packed my Bags for the Hospital. Have kept things in place and my wadrobe looks clean...Can't think of anything, except for the last piece of work which is the hand made photo album for my lil'one is pending. I shall paint it and keep it ready.

Am not sure how long will I not be allowed or be able to open my laptop and write again!

Things that made me SAD n HAPPY this WEeK...

Dumb thing I have done this week –
Following the Kannada actor Darshan’s episode in TV & Newspaper..I have no idea how horrible can these ppl get so jobless and shameless and drag thei married life ( which is drowning) to Public, make a fool of themselves and LATER after all the drama get tired, take a U-Turn to what they stated, make mends in front of public, police and all ……This is half a page story covered in news papers from past week and entire hour episode in all local channels…

Now, I had no option but to catch on something like this thinking that this Actor- husband who is all freaked out in fame and name and end up wretched with his wife will be bought into light and given his well deserved punishment but all in VAIN…So tat calls for me to say that I have enough time to be wasted so beautifully.

Other things which am not happy about….

I pestered Hubby to get me a PAINT BOX, while I planned to pick up few small pots from road side and JUST PAINT them…I had decided not to check any designs but to Paint my mind and vent out the boredom in me. Now Paint is here from past week and has not moved post that. I have reasons but I would not like to do that in my space – Giving reasons, ahhhh Maybe weekend will try to pick up a small pot …

Am yet to give my new saree blouse for stitching, this time have thought of an old style for the sleeves….. I want to do this before my PAINS start, but still wonder why am holding this when the lady is just across the road. I need this for the first function at home; for my Lil’ one…

LAST…..Am upset I handled few things badly few days ago. It’s the FEAR of “NOT SURE” what, that makes me hold what I want to really say and end up saying few things which has a mix of DIPLOMACY and there I come down BANG to square ZERO to my thoughts. I was working this out in my mind for quite long, but lost another chance to speak up what I want. BANG BANG…..Not good at all and have lost few hrs of my sleep in the night. I plan to write the pointers and work on them again. I will try since I NEED MY SPACE!

Things am Happy about……

The movements of lil’one continue to excite me and make me happy…Maybe one of the only things after I quit my Job and many things I have let go off from past year; which makes me feel nice and right about Life. I don’t read too many things, but reality is I talk and touch her/him and wonder AND SMILE.

NEXT is ‘A prisoner of birth’ BY JEFFREY ARCHER….amazing read and plan to finish this week. My love for books is more than those movies which I used to be crazy for. Not a single movie has excited me in TV from past month…(or) maybe its my patience lost!

Hubby tries his best to accommodate his work place and time so he can spend more time with me. I really appreciate this and have no idea what I would do without him. He is simple amazing and so understanding since he is going out of his way to keep me normal. He keeps his cool and balances my unwanted thoughts and JUST CAN’T DO WITHOUT HIM! Love u Gu

Let me post this pic of our's, which is my fav now...

Stop ThE CrAp!

Nothing much to say...just a venting out of "Cut the Crap" ...
Am I feeling better??? not sure, but this is all I can write since I can't talk ........

9 months...

Well, just going through “CraZY Mood Swings”, waiting for the DDay and its kinda weird waiting and imagining what’s going through inside…anyways, so to feel better, here comes this post!!!!

I watch loads of those never ending soaps in TV and that keep me a little occupied while I enjoy the Humor from Star world soaps, it’s the crazy clothing and nautanki from Star Plus which gives that added flavor for my day. Next are those lovely cooking shows from TLC, Good times which is a TREAT for a foodie in me and try them, which is the result of me having my own cooking book now!

Its surprising that inspite of hubby loading the shelf with DVDs, I have not shown the interest to even watch one of them and I fail to understand this sudden “DISINTEREST’ since I always wanted to watch them back to back when I have this time. So My interest levels have changed – Conclusion!

John Grisham’s SUMMONS keep me occupied during my ‘low on energy’ times and when I strongly feel sleeping is just a waste of time. I need REST, but at end of day, its all what we THINK. What if am completing my 9th month, I assume am one of the most active preg lady in third trimester who has not least bit cut down on my household chores, even at times when we don’t have a MAID which has added to that Extra helping hand to MIL and still ok physically.
Am even done with changing sheets for this fortnight…yippeeeeee !!!!! My ‘to – be – born’ is not cribbing and I patted it for being such a cutie pie and helping me all way…
Well back to what am I upto…..

Searching for the MAID is one hectic job and never knew it can get this nerve whacking…After one long week of search ( Wish there was a HR agency near home for this kinda job) we have finalized one lady, who still seem to be in doubt ….Now the decision maker on few priority things is MIL so I can’t even say PLeaseeeeeee join us and I will hike your salary with Bonus and blah blah……

(Am I sounding like a Indian Homemaker now??? Hubby will be happy)…

A month long of no office work and salary, Kinda very deplorable….More pain - the salary part, which puts me off since I wanted to pick up another RAW silk for Ganesha Habba and had to stop myself from spending …FIL was generous enough to see my fading mood and to gift me with the most expensive saree of my lifetime ( Happy meeeee!!!!) and a stare at hubby saying I need my dose of shopping else am not myself  So added to the Silk saree, I got my Nike Jacket from Hubby last evening ( Double happy!!!)

(Am I sounding like a obsessed shopaholic, pardon me since its all fair in the 9th month pregnancy- what say?)

Stocks are down and Gold rate is too high, the riches are walking towards TIHAR Jail is all I understand from News channels these days and totally FAIL to understand the post ANNA’s episode now. So all complicated things kept aside, I still manage to read quite a few details from TIMES everyday, so I do not emerge BLANK, when am kinda ready to lead the normal routine months from now…

Well….concluding this post now…soo many things to update but will keep for my next post....just counting days…missing hubby….Its bright and sunny outside….taking a deep breath, letting go off my frustration on some unwanted things and taking in some positive energy….smiling….Life is what we make out of it na 